We have visited so many places in Thailand. Sometimes I would wonder, “Why in the hell are we here and what does this have to do with anything?” Acharan Cathy and Acharan Linda gave us the experience but the connection between each of the experience is one that we would have to do ourselves. The processing each of the experience and the personal connection is what makes our stay in Thailand much more meaningful to each of us. I would be lying if I say it was a easy process. I am still iffy about some experiences but of those experiences that I processed, it is as fireworks is going off in my mind.
One particular experience was very emotional one for me. Visiting the Chaing Dao was a life changing one. The moment I walked into the auditorium and seeing those wonderful kids sitting, tears started coming down. I was so happy to see such young, bright, and beautiful students. Though they did not have much, each one of them is fighting hard for their education. Some of which leaves their family at a young age and dorm at the school. My tears wouldn’t stop as we visited individual classrooms. Some of these students seem to be five or six years old and yet they are so strong willed.
In the van Acharan Linda asked me how the visit was for me and I couldn’t answer because my voice started cracking. I will now answer that question. It was one of the most inspiring thing that I have ever experience in my life. I realized how privileged I am as an American and really take for granted that privilege. I need to slow down in life and appreciate the little things in life. These student inspires me to be a better person and try my hardest to reach my dreams because if someone like these students can rise up from close to nothing, why can’t I. I have all that I have and if I can’t reach my dreams, then I have taken my life for granted.
Pahoua, this is so inspiring. Thank you for sharing the story behind your tears. These photos reinforce the power of your insights well. Thank you!
Wow – I was so happy to read your comment that as your professors, we could give you "the experience but the connection between each of the experience is one that we would have to do ourselves." That is so true, Pahoua! I know you will continue to process this as you return to your friends and family and share with them what you experienced and how you felt. You now have a deeper connection to your family roots in SE Asia which will continue to influence your relationships and your journey through life.
Pahoua, this post made me cry! I had a similar experience at the school, where my tears would just not stop – and I remember feeling like my reaction was coming from something that I was not yet aware of. You drawing inspiration from the students is so beautiful, and your thoughts having helped me continue to reflect on this experience as well. Thank you so much for sharing!
Pahoua, this post made me cry! I had a similar experience at the school, where my tears would just not stop – and I remember feeling like my reaction was coming from something that I was not yet aware of. You drawing inspiration from the students is so beautiful, and your thoughts having helped me continue to reflect on this experience as well. Thank you so much for sharing!